COVID-19 and the Shutdown of 2020
March 18, 2020-June 3, 2020
Transforming my body
My All-time Heaviest!
To the left is me at my all-time heaviest at 257 pounds. Anything over 250 meant that I was closer to 300 pounds than 200 pounds, and that was a terrifying realization. This was March 2020, right before the shutdown. We were encouraged to take time off from work due to slow business, and we decided to take a trip to Arizona. This is the Southside of Lake Havasu, on the way to Parker.
A Course of Correction
With the shutdown I had a lot more time on my hands. I started going for walks, took more time planning meals, and improved my culinary skills. By the time I was hospitalized in October, I had already lost 35 pounds, and I believe that was my saving grace -- the difference between life and death. If I had still been as heavy as I was pictured here, I wouldn't be able to post this.
COVID Recovery and Continued Success
By the time June 2021 approached, I was just below 190 pounds -- the thinnest I had been since before Kacey was conceived. I felt great, and although I looked great, I still had about another 50 pounds to lose. I had lost about 65 pounds total over the course of 14 months.
Plateau and Snap
I felt depression coming on, and I thought I could fight it. I got a plateau and was unable to lose any more weight. I did my best to at least not gain any weight back, but it was getting harder and harder. By the time October hit, I finally had to admit that I couldn't hold it all together anymore and needed pharmaceutical help. I had been off anti-depressants for six years and vowed at the time I would never go back on them, but the depression was so bad that I knew I was going to turn suicidal if I didn't get some anti-depressants immediately -- and of course, we know the main side effect is weight gain. I was forced to choose weight gain over having no future at all.
Bipolar Diagnosis, and Rebound
I learned that I have Bipolar disorder, and all of a sudden my life made a lot more sense. All those times I was in a crippling depression, I was in a depressive cycle -- and all those times I was an overachiever that could do absolutely anything, I was in a manic cycle. I didn't realize the manic cycles were manic cycles -- I thought I had just somehow miraculously found the secret to life and the way to handle all of life's responsibilities. The manic cycles went unnoticed for many years because I was never self-destructive with drugs, sex, or risky behavior.; manic cycles manifested in the form of a bunch of home improvement projects and overextending myself. I thought manic cycles were the goal, I didn't realize it was a disorder.
I was originally on Zoloft and felt it really wasn't right for me, even though I had success in the past. I switched over to Wellbutrin and had better success. Unfortunately I went years without pharmaceuticals and depleted my body of everything I had by losing 65 pounds, so it took a while to get my brain balanced (not to mention the fact that I had recovered from COVID). I actually needed to increase my dosage, and went from 150mg to 300mg. By the time I fully recovered my brain, I rebound and fluctuated my weight between 235-245 pounds.
Transforming Again!
Starting Over with Experience
Here I am on the left in Los Angeles at my first book signing. I weigh approximately 240 pounds. Since about December 2024 I went aggressive with my diet and was eating mostly bacon, eggs, and avocado two to three times per day. Within 90 days I got myself out of diabetic status and reduced my cholesterol significantly enough to keep the doctor from trying to put me on meds.
My goal was to be much thinner by the time I did this book event, but I had two setbacks: COVID in January that resulted in an upper-respiratory infection, and COVID in March. I was barely recovered from COVID when I went to LA, and inevitably got infected with COVID again while there. It was my ninth COVID infection -- every time it affects my oxygen, and every time it depletes me for one month.
Partner.co
In June 2025 I was introduced to Partner.co with slimming drops. My friend Penne introduced them to me. My energy went through the roof and I was unstoppable. I joked with her that all she did was give me steroids and amphetamines. I could tell I found the answer to my prayers. I made a bold decision: instead of focusing on my weight loss, I focused on downstepping my levels of Wellbutrin, my life-saving anti-depressants; I knew I was probably overmedicated, and now was a good time to cut back. There was going to be withdrawal and I knew the drops would help me.
My First 6 Weeks
Due to my withdrawal symptoms, I gave in to every food craving I had -- and I was actually eating more junk than usual. Seriously, A raccoon would have side-eyed me. I regret nothing, because I needed to downstep my anti-depressants, and that would help with long-term weight loss. One other complication: I contracted COVID for the tenth (yes, TENTH) time. I never slowed down, I never took time off work, I never had to go home sick. The drops allowed me to keep going at full speed.
August 2025
This is where now I am officially documenting my first 30 days of being on the slimming drops. Even though I have actually been on them longer, my first 30 days officially begin this month. I am on every product Partner.co has, and I am using myself as a guinea pig. I am a distributor, but first and foremost, I am a client. I won't recommend anything to anyone that I haven't had personal experience with. The only sales tactic I will use is being honest about my methods and results. If I can help others, great, and if not, that's okay too. I am only here if my help is wanted.
I contracted my eleventh round of COVID this month. I am recovering with no downtime.
Diet
My goal is to have a low-carb diet by eating fatty meats and salmon, eggs, avocados, rounded with one small salad per day. The only real carbohydrates I eat are the ones inherent in vegetables, and keep it limited to once per day. I suppose I would lose more weight more quickly if I eliminated veggies altogether, but for me that's too aggressive. Under no circumstances will I eat bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, or refined sugar. Fruit is eating sparingly, once or twice per week. I don't forbid myself of it, but I am mindful of the sugar content.
Non-Partner.co Supplements
I am on methylene blue for focus and mental clarity, beef liver to help me with my oxygen levels, bovine colostrum to help me with my hair loss, Moerie Hair Growth, Dessicated bovine thyroid, Parasitic cleanser, and a GLP-1 supplement to kick-start the metabolism.
Exercise
Walks with Dumbells, and the Total gym.
Red Light Therapy
I just started Red Light Therapy on August 14, 2025 and have committed to doing a session twice per week for 12 weeks. I will reassess in November 2025.
Protecting your energy
Salt
Burn White Sage
Burn White Sage
Salt is purifying. Surround your home with it, and keep some in the shower. Scrub yourself with salt with the intention that you are cleaning your aura. If you have had an especially hard time, scrub with black lava salt.
Burn White Sage
Burn White Sage
Burn White Sage
Clean your aura and home regularly with the smoke of white sage. Be sure to open all doors and windows afterwards to let the smoke move out.
Tourmaline
Burn White Sage
Tourmaline
Tourmaline absorbs negativity. Carry some with you in your pockets, or wear as jewelry. Keep some in the four corners of your room where you sleep.
Pentacles
Tourmaline
The pentacle has been misunderstood: it is not satanic, but a sacred symbol for protection. It stands for the five sacred elements of Earth, Wind, Fire, Water, and Spirit. Place this symbol around entrances to your home, and even wear it as jewelry.
Crosses
Regardless of whatever your faith is, crosses have been used for centuries to represent a holy power. Dark energy generally moves on in the presence of a cross because they know you mean business when they see it.
White Candles
White is purity. Use white Candles in any ritual, whether it's for protection or manifestation.
Black Clothing
Black Clothing
Black Clothing
When you are not feeling your best, try to wear black clothing. Black deflects energy, and it's the reason we wear black while we are in mourning.
Crystals
Black Clothing
Black Clothing
Crystals amplify intentions, whether it is healing work or manifestation. Disregard any book about crystals telling you what they are for, because you need to connect with what you like. Everyone is different.
Positive Words
Black Clothing
Positive Words
Either keep engraved rocks around, or write down words of positivity in your own handwriting. Words manifest.